Leaving Room

I’ve found in my life that nothing is set in stone…or maybe that the only thing set in stone is Jesus.  Either way, life is full of curve balls; it’s full of changes and new adventures.  This is especially true for my life.

Let me just tell you about my schedule for next semester: I have probably changed it no less than 15 times.

I’m trying to go to Pakistan next summer and it looks like the trip will be cancelled.

I’ve found myself at a place where I can’t even plan because life is changing so quickly.

But change can be good. In the midst of all this chaos, God has had the most amazing people walk into my life.  He is beginning to cultivate my gift of poetry, reminding me of the power of my words.  He has given me people that speak life into my dreams and believe in me.  He has showed me that my past struggles can help others heal.  He has rekindled my heart for intercession and covering people, dreams, and fears in prayer.  He renewed my passion.

So here’s a few things God has been teaching me in this season.

  1. Everyone wants someone to fight for them. It seems like a weird concept, but couldn’t be more true.  Life is a struggle and everyone is looking for someone to look them in the eyes and say “I’m with you.”  Someone who won’t give up on you, but will pray for and dream with you.  Are you willing to go to battle for someone’s soul, for their light to outshine their darkness, for them to not settle for ordinary, but become something extraordinary? Fight for someone.
  2. Words matter. Mean them.  There is possibly no greater feeling than someone telling you that they’re proud of you or that they believe in you, someone speaking your worth to you.  Be truthful, even if it hurts.  If you can’t tell someone the truth, then you may have made your relationship with them an idol.  I am on my own journey to speak truth that only the Holy Spirit can dictate.  Eph 4:15 …speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ.
  3. Timing is EVERYTHING!  This year has left me wondering why so many new relationships. Why now? Why these people? All I can figure is that in God’s divine plan I need these people in my life at this time.  I don’t know how long some people will stay or under what circumstances they will leave, but I know that he has something for me to give and something for me to gain from the people around me.

God has a plan. Life is an adventure.  Spare no time loving people.

AND

LEAVE ROOM FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT!

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Sophomore Year {the struggle}

This year has been pretty interesting to say the least.  God has been blessing me with a plethora of new friendships.  However, there has been one theme that keeps resurfacing:

STRUGGLE.

Why is it that we have made it taboo to be in the midst of a struggle? to have a lifelong struggle?

This year I have never been more aware of my struggles both past and present…and things that will probably continue into my future.  I have realized the beauty of the struggle and struggling with others.  God is making me completely aware of my struggles and helping me to reconcile them to Himself.

So Here’s a few:

1. My sister accused me of not being Christ-like.  I don’t like criticism, but I apologized.

2. Soccer has not been going as I’ve planned it.  It hurts to trust Him, but I am doing it.

3. I still feel that the body of Christ is often an unsafe place to share my struggles with.  He is calling me to vulnerability and I am walking in it.

4. Sometimes my passions reveal all too much about my struggles. I don’t want to be judged, but I must fight for what I believe is right.

5. Sharing my writing is a scary feeling. God tells me to speak His words and I am opening my mouth in obedience.

Let’s Struggle Together

Romans 5:2-5

…And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.